I love being 30! There I said it. For some reason, as I approached the big 3-0 I found myself struggling. I blogged about it if you need a refresher. As I approach the end of my latest trip around the sun (January 7th) I have so many things to say! So many discoveries, mostly about myself. For me it has been a year of letting things go, rising above, and learning to embrace change. My favorite psychic in lily dale once told me that I do not see age or generations I just see people. Although I knew this in a way, nobody ever said it out loud, no one had ever put it into words. This proves very true. I can relate to just about anyone and being a younger mom I often find myself in situations where I totally forget my age, because to be honest it has never really mattered to me. For example, there are times when I want to “drop it like its hot” & “shake it like a salt shaker” and then I remember I am someones mama. Some of my very best friends are 20 years older than me and we never run out of things to talk about. I really feel like I am right there with them in life. I admit I am mostly confused by teenagers. Their clothes have come full circle to the “my so called life” era, as a matter of fact that show should come back…jared leto and all it would be wildly successful. Facebook is no longer cool to them, from what I gather its because their mom and grandma are now trolling around on it. I’ve asked around and they don’t seem to like Miley Cyrus, which is refreshing, but still leaves me pondering…..then who does? I admit it was hard not to get behind “wrecking ball” but then when I witnesessed her giving what I percieved as some form of oral sex to a mallet, my support was over. So here I am. This is the happiest I have ever been, I feel the healthiest I have ever felt and most important I am still learning. Every single day. I was inspired last night by my friend Karen, she is one that is older than me but that I still feel I have so much in common with. We went to a “terrarium and winter bulb making class” I like to do anything with my hands and create so when she asked if I was interested a while back I jumped at the opportunity. It’s also nice to have something to show for my “girls nights out” other than just a hangover. So off we went, I throughly enjoyed making my little garden I will show you a picture! What I gained from the evening was so much more than a garden and some winter bulbs though. See when I walked into the shop where our class was I knew nothing about terrariums or bulbs really. Though I was determined to make the best damn garden or terrarium I could.
It’s good to be ambitious.
It’s better to step back, breathe, meet people in your community, learn, create, laugh, explore, and feel pride in the imperfection. My garden was not the best in the building, but it was mine and to be honest I wished I could “honey I shrunk the kids” myself and go sit on the little bench I put in it for 10mins.
When I got home Karen sent me a picture of all of her crafting she has at home. She is making a beaitiful knit blanket (maybe crochet?) she had a cool scarf started. I learned how to knit once, I enjoyed it actually. I always believed I had a little touch of ADHD so it felt good to keep my hands busy while watching a movie or talking to a friend. Yet everytime there was the slightest snag or imperfection I would quit. It would piss me right off. So much in fact, that I gave up knitting. When I told Karen she said “imperfection is part of handmade, flaws and all”
Karen is so smart isn’t she? This is what my 30’s are going to be all about. Today is proclamation day for me. It should be for you too. Be easy on yourself. Let it go. Rise above it. Learn to love the imperfections.
Here is my garden
When I woke up this morning Karen sent me this
So I guess my thought is that my 20’s were fun, I acomplished so very much. My 30’s don’t need to be so much about acomplishing, they need to be about learning to let the light in.